I almost know all the words to 3Oh3’s Richman…. pride.
I find it funny, watching my friends and realizing they’re starting to actually look like adults.
Eventually we’ll act it, but shit, we’re mostly 21. I’m not expecting miracles. (myself included)
Same. Level. Fuck yeah. And agreement on our friends.
God bless.
I don’t really watch Glee, everything I know about it is mostly watching the first season years ago and then the Tumblr Fandom, plus some of the song covers are amazing. I’m not really a shipper but damn. I think Quinn and Rachel have the most beautiful friendship/ romantic possibility. I’ve focused in on some of their interactions together and it’s so wonderful to see the progression from complete dislike to being emotional over each other. They actually seem to care about each other’s hopes and dreams, seem to want the best for each other. And I love it. I love that it has the possibility to turn into something romantic, and the fact that it’s this beautiful almost secret friendship where each girl can honestly support each other and love one another.
Oh god. I think my cousin might be a whore.
Damnit.
We had some pretty interesting talks at work today, my favorite was one of the servers saying people should stop complaining about their lives. If there’s something you don’t like about yourself or your life then change it. Sure, it won’t be easy but if you really want it then go for it, and it’ll be worth it in the end.
Everything comes with a price, especially change. It’s just up to a person to decide if it’s really worth it or not.
I miss the companionship but I don’t miss him.
I was gonna see The Lorax after work tonight… but my Manager changed my hosting shift to a bussing shift. I will be there forever…
I was taking photos this afternoon and decided to go to my old barn Greylyn to take some shots of the horses and ponies, but as I’m driving down the driveway I realized the paddocks were empty, the fences were falling apart, and there were gas tanks on the side of the barn and a new gravel parking lot where my favorite pony used to graze. I think thats one of the biggest heartbreaks I have ever had. Realizing the place I called home for 8 years was gone, the place where I learned to ride and perfect my technique, the horses and ponies that taught me and toughened me up- its all gone.
It’s such a heartbreak, I will never see these horses and ponies again. They were my teachers, my friends. I was thrown, kicked, bit, bucked off and into fences. I was taught to ride, I toughed it out, I learned to have a soft hand and a strong seat and now those teachers are gone. The ones that haven’t died, I know there were at least four-five horses left. I know Ricky, Foresooth, Bam Bam, and Girlfriend were still there. I know it. Now they’re gone, I’m never going to see them again.
The love I felt for them is indescribable. They were there for the tears, my growing up, the happiness I felt when I won my first Reserve Champion ribbon. I loved them like they were my own, and for that hour they were. They were my horses, I remember kissing their noses, playing with their ears, washing them off in the summer, grooming them, playing after a lesson, and I just loved them so much. I hope they are in good homes and not packed away in some slaughter house. I just wish I had seen them before this happened, I wish I had never seen this barn in the condition it is in now. Those were some of my best years and my best friends, and I’ll never forget anything they’ve taught me. About riding and about myself.
Know what’s nice? Realizing you’re a lot stronger than people realized. When your thoughts overruled your own emotions in a talk about feelings. My emotions don’t defy me, but they certainly help propel me into thought, they help mold me and to realize that I’m still strong.
I am not emotional right now. I’m rational. I’m observant and I’ve made myself clear. I’m not angry, I’m not hurt, but I’m disgusted because I very well might be right. And I think that bothers me more than anything else. I would rather be angry or hurt then calm right now. But I’m not. It’s not there anymore.
